Whirlwind Tumbling on a troubled seaand drifting downthe stream of consciousnessmy mind circling, overwhelming me. Rivers never stop runningover the spiked rocks,neon fishes and warped clocksnever stop bringing me back to you, a soul shimmering and wise,even covered in someone else’s dirtcan’t escape penetrating eyes. I look up at theblack rapids swirlbroken kaleidescope haloall around … Continue reading “New Poem: June 11, 2008”
I got back http://nickscrusade.org/ and it is focused on relocating me. Mom’s health has declined, Alabama will not pony up for additional supports (other than a nursing home) and I really need to get to a better state or I’m gonna be screwed. I’m looking hard at NYC, Minneapolis, Portland, and other areas for the … Continue reading “Nick’s Crusade Part II”
Psychedelic Angel It’s understandableto doubtin a world of pain! darkness! disappointment!I can only pray the scales will level out I tryto understand,Psychedelic angel,take my hand!Nothing will stopa phoenix,rising from the sand. Let us try togo the other wayI sometimes try to pass as nothingbut my dreams give me away Psychedelic angel,come to me!I’ll work it … Continue reading “New Poem: May 28, 2008”
Nothing’s Gained Without Loss Take me.Take me to the indigoShut offshut off the radioendless in my brainshow me the lightthat isn’t an oncoming train Nothing’s gained without lossI understand the raindrop can’t create withoutlosing its shapeon the grass-tips. Strip itall away soonlose itshed my cocoonwithout a traceFall!I have faithand uncovered face Change me!Create again.
Last night, I turned 26. I hope I can do something better with my 26th year than my 25th! Here’s to a new location and new opportunities in my life! Nick
This old song is really speaking to me right now. Got no feel, I got no rhythmI just keep losing my beatI’m ok, I’m alrightAin’t gonna face no defeatI JUST GOTTA GET OUT OF THIS PRISON CELLSOMEDAY I’M GONNA BE FREE, LORD!
Well, I’ve been alive, just distracted from blogging. In October, my computer died, and I spent nearly three weeks on mom’s old PC unable to run applications heavier than Firefox. I made the best of the situation and did a lot of reading, especially about Second Life, a 3d virtual community. What especially caught my … Continue reading “Where have I been?”
Lots of people on MySpace (even presidential candidates) are making Simpsons avatars of themselves. HAHAH!!!!! Hi-larious. Here’s the Simpsons avatar of me. I used www.simpsonsmovie.com/avatar to make it, then added the beard and ventilator with Paint Shop Pro. You can also use SimpsonizeMe.com Fun 🙂 Nick
From Mom’s flickr: Then Jamie (left) and Nick (right). Jamie was approx. 4 and I was about 6.around 1988. Now Jamie (left) and me (right). Nearly 20 years later. Nick
This deserved a post. I’ve been obsessively playing Civilization 4 for nearly two years. I’ve never won a game before; this (and my obsessive, stubborn nature) is why I keep playing. Usually I fall behind in technology, or have an inferior military because I spend time building infrastructure, and get left in the dust on … Continue reading “My First Ever Victory at Civilization 4!”
I’m back. I haven’t blogged in awhile because I didn’t know what to say. I don’t know what the narrative is anymore. People define themselves and grasp their goals and aspirations by relating to others. We explain our past story and bounce ideas and plans off each other, and in this way we cobble together … Continue reading “I don’t know what the narrative is anymore”
To the guys who want to slash Medicaid funding even more, take this story and eat it. Alabama Medicaid called Friday, they want to terminate our waiver…. Basically, we’re too expensive to keep alive. They will discuss this more in May. They say the program is just too expensive. Scary. But then again they claimed … Continue reading “Update: Medicaid Trying To Cut Us Off…Again”
Beware the Ides of March We recently passed the third anniversary of the death of my friend Chris. It’s so awful, I don’t write or speak about this much (too painful) but I thought you should all know about it. My family had known Chris since we moved to Mobile, Alabama in 1983, I was … Continue reading “I Feel Messed Up”
Me and my brother Jamie (on left). Me
Fear, Esophagastroduodenoscopy and The Ultimate Quarterlife Crisis What’s my world like lately? I hesitate to even go there, because it inevitably veers into the dark side, where I (and most people) don’t want to go. But I think occasionally I should throw back the curtain and disinfect the area with some sunlight, let people know … Continue reading “This Is The Digital Soul of Nick Dupree”
2007 Time is passing. One of the greatest illusions mankind clings to, is the notion that time is stalled and they can hang on to the status quo. You can’t. One of the only unalterable elements of nature is change. Nation-states rise and fall, politics shift like unavoidable rising tides. In Iran, anti-regime politics are … Continue reading “It’s A New Year”
Another night. Another night. Sitting here alone, there is ample quiet to think That’s how I spend my time. As a thinker. I’m a thinker. I’m a poet without poetry to write. Right now. This isn’t poetry at all. It’s just some alone guy reaching out into the ether. There’s nothing really to say. Right … Continue reading “How I’m Doing”
My Ventilator Quit And The House Nearly Caught On Fire Another Monday Today I was sleeping on my side when suddenly I heard the loud, continuous beep that means catastrophe: “BEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE—-” not the normal “beep beep beep,” of a tube disconnected, but the blaring, terrible din of total ventilator failure. I couldn’t breathe at all, … Continue reading “My Ventilator Quit And The House Nearly Caught On Fire”
Thanksgiving!! All the family who live in the house. From me (right), mom, Jamie (left), Nana and Louie the dog in my bed, at bottom. I asked mom to get bread so I could HaMotzi-ize it (say the bread blessing in Hebrew), so it was the most Jewy Thanksgiving to date. May it only increase. … Continue reading “How My Thanksgiving Went”
We have two dogs. This is Louie, also seen here. He’s 13. 91 in dog years. He’s a Lhasa Apso. This is CC. Toy Poodle. Age 11. Seen here in a sweater to keep her from shivering after getting shaved. The extreme cuteness is just a side effect. Also, she is planning to kill you … Continue reading “Dog Blogging”
Nick Gets Lifetime Advocacy Award I Received Lifetime Advocacy Award At ADAP’s 30th Anniversary Event Friday, we made the 175-mile journey to Montgomery to attend the 30th anniversary of ADAP (Alabama Disabilities Advocacy Program), the state P&A (protection and advocacy) agency (every state has one), and receive their first-ever “Lifetime Advocacy Award” at the Alabama … Continue reading “Nick Gets Lifetime Advocacy Award”
The Best Of Nick’s Blog 2006 Some favorites from my blogging for 2006… Governor Riley Refuses Federal Funding For Home Care My editorial on Alabama Medicaid’s institutional bias, and their resistance to do the right thing, even refusing federal help. Nick Gets Religion I explain what I’ve come to believe, and break down the Jewish … Continue reading “The Best Of Nick’s Blog 2006”
This Song Really Speaks To Me Right Now “All These Things That I’ve Done” by The Killers Leave it to Nick to express High Holy Days reflections in the form of an alt/rock song. I put “All These Things That I’ve Done” by The Killers on my MySpace profile, check it out. It is a … Continue reading “This Song Really Speaks To Me Right Now”